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I'm a Survivor of Child Abuse, not a Victim






I'm a survivor, not a victim.

I'm not weaker because of my abuse. It doesn’t make me weird, strange or frankly even unique. It's made me stronger and this is something I struggled with for a long time. I felt like my childhood made me lesser of a person than everyone else. I blamed it for everything. My social anxiety - abuse. My depression – sucky childhood. My poor social support system – bad parenting. My relationship to my extended family – angry parents. My financial situation – sadness.

Victim. Victim. Victim. Poor Sussan.

A change of mindset can work wonders on changing the world around you. You become in control of the situation. You control your story and let’s face it – when your parents are abusive control is something you’ve barely felt before. Once I started seeing myself as a survivor and less (I still slip into victim mode here and there) I felt a sense of empowerment.

I may not have had the beautiful family life that you see on television, but I don't need one because I have my husband.

I may not have a mother that I can turn to when times are scary and confusing, but I have my sister and brother-in-law.

I may not have the relationship with all my extended family that I would like, but I have an amazing set of friends and they're my family now. Also, I have a very loving (clingy) cat.



A survivor has seen and triumphed over struggle. A survivor continues to fight for themselves and those around them. A survivor sees their scars and is proud of them. A survivor sees their limitations and, while they may not work to expand themselves every day, at least acknowledges that they are there.

If you're here it's because you want to start to work through it. You want to make a change and start living (as cliché as it sounds) your #bestlife. This makes you a survivor. Step out of your own way. Tell your victimised side to shut up and join me as we celebrate who we are, where we came from and where we're going.

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  1. Unknown17 May

    I too now feel the same that I am no longer a victim but a survivor, which is a really hard and long journey before you realise .but I'm happy I'm finally there. It's ok to be happy and my world is not going to fall apart because of that.😊

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  2. Sussan14 July

    I'm so glad you're at such a positive part of your journey.

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